POEM // If Only Text, audio and description at https://sueellson.com/blog/if-only-poem By Sue Ellson If only I’d known The strength within To walk alone To begin again If only I’d felt Just good enough I’d have had a go And not beat myself up If only I had been Aware of my truth I’d have done so much more Way back in my youth If only I could see Beyond smoke and mirrors I’d know in my heart My truest believers If only I had heard The voice of encouragement I’d have picked myself up Without so much judgement If only I’d hoped With faith not fear I’d trust my intuition To make my life clear If only I’d eaten More nourishing food I’d have skipped those addictions That controlled my mood If only I’d moved My body each day I’d have felt the joy Of swing and sway I made various choices Some good, some bad But whilst there is still life I can choose to be rad To acknowledge my wins To learn more lessons To change with the seasons To contemplate my reasons As I reflect Memories abound Never perfect Sometimes found Glimpses of certainty Appearing right now To truly be me I silently bow For there in grace If only disappears I’ve done my best Over all my years Onwards I’ll go With heart and mind Together at last Synced in time