Remorse By Sue Ellson As I sit a while And think of the past The people I’ve lost The times so sad The hearts I’ve broken The tears I’ve shed The smiles I’ve forgotten The fears I’ve fled As the tears well again For words I’ve spoken And actions I wish Simply never happened Some silences never end Some thoughts always repeat Stuck on rotation Feels like defeat I did the best I could But was it enough? Why did those moments Fall off the cuff? Raw Unreal Wounded Surreal How many prayers will I speak To repent those tragedies Sent from a righteous peak How could I get it so wrong Why couldn’t I see what I had done? As I remember pulling the trigger The bullet was fired, the pain still lingers How do I forgive myself For the moral crimes I’ve committed? How do I move on When I think of the injured? Momentarily Ordinarily Warily Scarily Slowly Slowly Out of the dark Out of the gloom Reluctant to emerge From my doomed coccoon I lurch Modestly Gracefully With kindness With care The rogue in me Laid so bare It is time for me To be more aware To be more respectful To be more careful To think of others To put in buffers To protect To preserve To shield To strengthen To drop the gun To stop the fight To release control To invite the right More at https://sueellson.com/blog/remorse #remorsepoem #remorsepoetry #sueellson #sueellsonpoem #poem #poetry